ten million fireflies will never be you fly... you stinks and dumb and stupid too....

Sila baca tajuk macam lagu fireflies nyanyian.... siapa? Maaf. Saya memang tak berapa nak concern sangat sapa penyanyi dia. Anyway, yesterday I had a great time with the bankers or should I say... the bunkers? Haha!!

Kalau Beverly Hills 90210, kami Segamat 85000 okay! Hahahaha!!!

After we break-fasting at Hang Li Po, us 11 went to Eye On Malaysia just to get chill and share some rants and hot stories (oh we are so hard-core gossiper ya ampuuuunnn!!!). Babes told me that this gal oh, should I say... the she-man post something (again) in her entry mentioning about flies... and did delete our comments which we use our (read: OWN) account. Oh my gosh! I thought you were that tough fly! Silly for just acting like you dont really care about our appearance there.. Well, you mentioned you want us to read your entry right? Silly mafakka. What a shame.

Acting like you dont care is so not cool just like you copy one status and put it at yours in fb oh my gosh you both are deserve to be together. Lucky for you guys seriously. :)

And that she-man whos unfortunately known as a gal in one second (man we are not as stupid as you. Living in denial as oh last time I checked my gender Im still a male then turn to write as girlish as you are, hoh! No worries, I still can contain my pent-up frustration to you. Girl, you are one shame-full honest to God for being part of the UM. To hell if you want to back up your man but babe, its just that we all know the truth... He is the fuck. Oh, but it'd never cross to our mind that you're the one who's the fucker hoping them both to be separated? Hope not. Malu woi. Kehkehkeh...

And please add some knowledge bout flies. They come with no alarm and suddenly they give us shits and we went sakit perut. So you claim us as the lalat, here's the thing. We wrote comments, using our own name and our own blog url. YOU WROTE COMMENTS USING A STUPID GAY NAME AND LEAVE YOUR TAIK MACAM MUKA TAK TAU MALU. Then ada hati nak mengaku that you're male? Kau ni buat malu lelaki je la. Gay pun belum tentu macam kau. Haih...

. Kecik is just weird of this bajet educated kinda people. Wtf I mean?

Wild World

I remember Sunshine gave me this song when I was still in school. It meant a lot to me. No one ever tell what's the real world out there looks like. But Sunshine did. That is why he is THAT special to me. :)

Lalalalalala...
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grievin'
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there
CHORUS:
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world and
I'll always remember you like a child, girl
You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you sad, girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
CHORUS
Lalalalala....
Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
CHORUS

Love (I ♥ U). Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

I love thee

No mess with my heart. I can revert to the ugliest thing ever.

Try me.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

mentor

This is my mentor. The one who responsible showing me the path of success. Hahaha!!!

Thanks so much to Kak Lily who gave me strength for TWO YEARS to finish Coklat Bunga & Si Cupid with lots of patience and tips being told. Edit here and there.. finally! I received the novel on my birth-date. Hehehe..

May we success in this field Kak Lily!! Especially you... my dearest mentor. :)

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

A blast weekend!

I had fun with my family this weekend! In my entire life, I dont think I ever encountered this fun back to back with all the people I love! Friday was my birthday. Thanks to my sister who celebrate me and my mother's birthday. Yes again we share the same date (I am her worst gift ever! hahaha)

Emak, Adik, Airis baby, Moi

Us at our birthday night. Thanks to adik sebab belanje! (Next time I and emak should pay with something more since this is her sole-planned party for the family. Salute!)

Today, my family (papa's) asked us to come over Mak Itam's house for a lamb roast! This is the first day in my life to eat a lamb... I never taste 'em before coz my mom never ate them. So I never ever have intention to trust them. But for today? An exception for me. I was influenced by their 'its finger licking good' looking shoot me to death! I made believe that everything was gonna be okay if I taste just a bit of it...
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and so I managed to finish a plate of lamb roast. Miahahaha!!



This is my aunt. But after being 'sold' to the family back then when I was a kid, she's just like my own mother albeit I still call her Mak Itam. But I call her husband ayah. Literally I have lots of brothers and sisters la kan? :)

My mum told, when I was a kid I seldom silence. I love to cry hard and people would feel like suffocate me in the river (Okay that's my conclusion haha). So I was sold with TWENTY-cent. Hahaha.. first time I heard about it I laughed! That was so cheap man.. Hahaha.. Anyway, that was the moment I start to behave and turn this way yes (okay I dont know what happen as soon as the trade made but currently, I do know the result) :)

Oh well, I love my family so much!!

This picture made my nieces envy. Hahahaha!! What to do when you caught her attention that day? I think I have made her smile. I love her so much! And also my very own mother. Love you both!

There's time when you feel
Flowers withered over the sun
Birds flew with no rhyme
Skies even darker
And the rain brusque with no tear

Even the thunder strikes
Oceans dancing hard
You never stop hoping
Praying and standing
Strong and even harder
Than steel

You are the most
Wonderful jewel
The world failed to found
But secretly
Believe that you
Are magnificent.

Happy Mothers Day!

Love. Hugs. Kissess Kazoos.

happy birthday shikin!

Yesterday was my birth-date. Share it with my mum. Sebab itu tak boleh dekat sebab asik nak gadoh je keje. Yesterday was my biggest celebration with the family... eh? Tak gak kot.. sebab ada yang tak ada. But one of my best birthday celebration sebab Sunshine ade same. Hehehe...
Seronok!
And thank you to all friends who wish for my birthday in facebook. I lap you all!!
Oh! And Thanks to me who work hard for this 2 years and able to have my own label. Heart myself! Miahahaha!!!

once upon a diamond-second

I still remember how hard it was. T'was late night, when I back from work, sit in front my laptop with a hot tea and sometimes biscuits and bread to fill my empty tummy. I was exhausted simultaneously excited.

T'was late night. When I stare at my notes and start to let the tears fall. Yes I was exhausted again. But not that excited. I started to think, how long this will be? How many words must I fill in? What kind of drama should I create? And so... and so...

T'was late night, I called my loved one and start to weep. I was again... exhausted. He told that I must be strong. Victory ain't that easy. In fact, there's nothing easy in this world. So I start again and swept my tears. And so I recharged, again.

I felt it. The hardwork, struggle, and hope. It was there.. and still there. These few days has been good for me. I feel the blessing. Syukur Ya Allah for gave show me the path. It was something I never thought I would encountered. I feel great and blessed. It is Your mercy, I am still here. It is Your bless, I have my own masterpiece (oh I know I am so junior in this industry but yes, my first born baby is from my hardwork and stubborn-ness trying to figure out something inside. And yes, I did.)

Today, I couldn't believe my eyes and still not trying to believe although I have been happy like monkey. I jump on the couch, I stare at the laptop like I saw a ghost, my finger was cold, I shake my self upside down trying to get real. But it was what I saw. My eyes didn't lie. It was there. My pink chocolate is there. I feel like crying but I turn it to one cute (okay, I lied. It was a miserable) laugh.

I feel like reveal it here. But I couldn't. Somehow, I don't want to be more than I suppose to be. I am afraid. And I am not that confidence with myself. Maybe later. When Im ready. But now... I might just smile from far. Hope y'all will like it. Whatever 'it' is.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

say no more, love!

Ready to read this mi amor?

Few things to be corrected:

You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes

-That is totally wrong. I am caring to you right?

Your kids will be quiet and wont give a hard time

-YEAH... RIGHT. If my kids with you like that, I'll bring them to the hospital as soon as possible!

It'll be awkward if our kids (whoaaaa!! OUR KIDS?? Improvement to the next step of life commitment? Miahahaha...) are quite. Huh. T_T

p/s: Ich liebe dich. ^_^

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

and when they need you

Cherita 1:

I don't want to reveal too much about this person but I am sincerely sad to what is going on now. How can she changed so drastic? And what most ultimate-question is... how can she be like that? It saddens me to hear such story for she is the most lovable child in the family. If I were with her... I can't imagine what will I do. I am sure not going to support her and I will surely neglect her way the other friend do. We will love her as a friend but for what she has done... it's quite intolerable.

I thought you are strong... but clearly you are not.

I thought you really is steel... but you are so easy.

I thought you have brain to think... but seems you are so stupid.

And most importantly,

I NEVER THOUGHT YOU ARE SO THIS BULLSHIT.

I have swear that I will not let myself in your life again and its what I do... (Or not. Okay, just pretend I do. Dem!) However, I'm not blogging as your friend... but more to my object of observation. (That reason is the most good reason have cross in my mind... seconds ago. But it is true.) Hope when you wake up its not too late.

And it is so sad to reminisce such great moment with you. Our stories, our thoughts back then. "Do not be wild with such effing excuse i.e; my family has neglect me... My boyfriend is far... I have no one in this world, I'm from a broken family..." And whatever crap. Wake up. You'll hurt you father if you keep behaving this way.

And please... back off from gangster-ism. Not good for your life... and health. :)

p/s: You need to change. Your family need you.

Cherita 2:

I just sent these Taiko's at LCCT this afternoon for a battle with the monsters at Sarawak tomorrow. It's them who'll fight but I am the one who's excited. Huahuahuah!!! Well, one day I hope I can be there... like them. Bring the bazooka and ready to fight with those monsters! Anyway, good luck to them! Bring lots of Yello Fin Tuna okay? ;)

*like I can attend the yamcha after this. Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: Sunshine and I need you guys as a moral support to rule the angling world. :)

Cherita 3:

I am aware of being a Taurus-ian (huh? is this what they call for people who born in Taurus? Hentam sajalah...)

But let see the application result from facebook;

Lets zoom a few attitude up there... so what say I;

• Tidak butuh dimotivasi: Huh? Am I? I reckon of cant wear legging when going out with Sunshine... But I did change my clothes. Oh! I did rebel too. Throwing the shoe and hit the door so loud. :p Next!
• Pernapasan lemah: But I am a sports people. Hard to breathe is something I can handle baby... for now. But I am hard to breathe when I saw those athletes with build muscle and well-height. Hihihihi... *melting*
• Mencintai petualangan: WHAT IS THIS?????

Kahkahkahkah!!! What did they mean with 'petualangan'? I hate fighting okay even I am bold. Haish. This result must've come from a survey. Haish... this is not good. Nooooooooooooooooooooooott good. Sunshine must be like "herm... see, she can't even agreed."

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Haih... Anyway, you still love me kan? Kan? ;)

p/s: I need Baskin Robbin now. Haih...

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

wait mr postman!

There's a kind of hush all over the world, tonight
All over the world, you can hear the sounds, of lovers in love
You know what I mean
Just the two of us, and nobody else, in sight
There's nobody else, and I'm feeling good, just holding you tight

So listen very carefully
Closer now and you will see what I mean
It isn't a dream
The only sound that you will hear
Is when I whisper in your ear
I love you forever and ever - the carpenters

There's no place like home! =)

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

action always derive from a reason

Mode: Jiwang.

(tak nak baca pi men jejauh.)

I don't do angling... before. Not to say that I don't recognize reel and rod but I'm not into angling for the typical reason - I hate waiting. Few years back, I started to joined Sunshine again and the moment that hits your vein was when the fish strikes. The energy from the fishes could make you startled. But when you didn't get any fish, that time you feel like swimming in the pond. Hehehe..

I don't like to see... I like to join the events. Yes I am so cannot duduk diam. I will get bored easily by just see and listen and ponder whatever they do. I like to do, touch, feel the passion of this sports. Just like my old-victory day back then when you hit the ball, get 'em strikes and so on. The moment of victory is just can't be waste. And for some reason... I join angling because of the friendship and sportsmanship that were bonded with....

Him...

Them...

Them...

Them...

And him.

The concrete reason of my involvement with this activity is because of him. :)

He likes to angling. I love to see him smiling.

He wants me to get involve. So do I.

He wants me to feel the passion. I did too.

He wants us to share the experience. Just like moi.

So if there's someone out there asking yourself why do I like to join angling, there you have the reasons. Or maybe there is someone out there who had come to that thought before. So here is my answer...

I would support my fiance in whatever event he'd join. Not just support, I will get involve. Sometimes, I feel like winning above or winning for him. Heh. Maybe some side of me just want to impress him. After six years of being together, I just cant get enough to win his heart. Hahaha... Go on muntah darah. I am so in jiwang mode now. :p

Whatever it is... I will rule this angling world so I will not ambiguous whenever he tell me about something. I hate to be in condition where I don't have any idea about the topic. So Sunshine, tunggu ada masa terluang saya baca segala jenis gewang and reel, jig, popping dan sebagainya sebagai ilmu tambahan.

p/s: Sebenarnya saya rindu dia. Rasa macam nak balik lagi. Kenapalah kerja banyak sangat. Hesh...

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.