I love thee

No mess with my heart. I can revert to the ugliest thing ever.

Try me.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

tense

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Why it happen again? No. Not again. Its new.

*sigh*

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos

happy birthday shikin!

Yesterday was my birth-date. Share it with my mum. Sebab itu tak boleh dekat sebab asik nak gadoh je keje. Yesterday was my biggest celebration with the family... eh? Tak gak kot.. sebab ada yang tak ada. But one of my best birthday celebration sebab Sunshine ade same. Hehehe...
Seronok!
And thank you to all friends who wish for my birthday in facebook. I lap you all!!
Oh! And Thanks to me who work hard for this 2 years and able to have my own label. Heart myself! Miahahaha!!!

Allah Maha Adil

Yesterday's paper. Suck. I hate it and I feel like ripping the question paper. But, before I could feel any more hatred, one message has change the initial idea. I turned out with one redha smile. Yes. I am so happy and so syukur.

Allah, I was blur in the exam hall with that questions.. but as in return, You gave me one message that really make me feel better. Maybe its not my rejeki in Monetary Economics.. but You gave me 'that' rejeki. Allah Maha Adil...

I am insaf.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

sex studies? sex subject?

Tadi saya tengok berita pasal pendidikan seks yang bakal diajar di sekolah (ke... dah? Oh maaf. Saya memang agak lambat sket bab isu semasa cenggini. Almaklum Alburqueque tengah final kan.)

However saya agak tertarik untuk menyuarakan pendapat kat blog ni. Instead of writing my personal life, I also really love to share my opinions with readers who love to mengambil tahu hal orang, gosip etc. Why not kita open mind kita talk about something useful kan? Kan? Ecececece aku nak mengajar sangatlah tak sesuaikan. So, kat blog tak seberapa ni la saya nak komen pasal pendidikan seks ni.

Personally, saya tak setuju dengan cadangan tu. Instead of pendidikan seks, kita ada pendidikan sivik kan? Why not letakkan je subject pasal isu sosial dalam course tu? Okey je kot.. Daripada pendidikan 'seks' semata-mata. Okey saya tak tahu sejauh mana subjek tu ada dalam silibus pelajar and yes it is good to give those kids early awareness with the hope there will be lesser anak luar nikah. True. But still, adik-adik kita ni betul-betul nak aware ke.. atau nak 'menambahkan ilmu pengetahuan'?

Saya bukanlah apa kan, tapi kalau nak ikut logik dengan zaman sekarang ni... (tak yah tengok anak orang tengok adik sendiri pun dah boleh tau) teenagers dah lain. Padahal saya dengan adik beza bape tahun je kan, tapi perbezaan 'budaya' tu sangatlah jauh. Mungkin juga sebab personaliti kami berbeza, saya lebih suka menyibukkan diri dengan outdoor activities whilst she likes to be in-door. Ye. Pemalas. Wakakaka!! Okey, focus.

Disebabkan statistik anak luar nikah sekarang ni SANGATLAH menakutkan, memang patut kita buka minda sedari zaman mereka mengelap hingus lagi pasal awareness in sex before marriage especially SEX BEFORE AKIL BALIGH! Agak ramai saya tengok budak-budak yang meronggeng kat shopping mall, agak tak tahu malu. Bergesel sana sini macam cacing kerawit, bercium sana sini macam tak tahu malu (padahal ni budak-budak sekolah bet lah ngan aku umur dorang baru form 1!! ***** pun baru nak tumbuh okey!! Tapi dah pandai nak menggeletis sana sini euw! Sangat geli okey.

So pendedahan pasal seks bebas ni wajar diberi kepada budak-budak ni supaya mereka BERJAGA-JAGA. Janganlah pulak pendedahan tu nanti dijadikan medan 'menuntut ilmu' bagi mereka yang kecik-kecik dah gatal nak kawen! Amboi amboi amboi baru habis form five dah menggatal sibuk nak kawen ape jadah???

Tapi personally saya rasa, tekankan ilmu sivik 200 kali ganda dalam diri masyarakat sekarang which of course we should start with the young generations. Help them to understand about self-dignity, the consequences of every step they take, teach them about life, the real life besides things in the book. Apa yang saya perasan, bila keadaan dah teruk barulah kerajaan sibuk nak guna balik subjek sivik kat sekolah. Zaman saya tak adalah pulak. Apakah itu maknanya kami ini baik-baik belaka? Hikhikhik..

Apa-apa pun, walau apa pun plan yang gomen buat mintak-mintaklah kesedaran itu dapat diterapkan dalam diri youngsters ni. Kadang-kadang bukan apa... ikut kawan tu yang menjadi-jadi.

SEDARLAH WAHAI ADIK-ADIK ATAU BUDAK-BUDAK SEBAYA AKU.

IKUT KAWAN KAU DAPAT APA?? BUKAN TAK BOLEH BERKAWAN.. TAPI JANGAN SAMPAI JADI PENGIKUT. HAVE YOUR OWN IDENTITY OKAY?

Tibe-tibe rase macam nak stop menulis kat sini padahal tadi kemain berkobar-kobar nak bersyarah pasal benda ni. Ah, malaslah nak panjang-panjang. Lusa ada paper lagi jadi wajib study. Apa-apa pun adik-adik, kawan-kawan... jangan nakal-nakal... dan selamat beramal!

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

thats the way to be remarkable

Morning therapy with Chris Guillebeau;

To be remarkable means...

• You do work you enjoy that also makes a positive difference in other people's lives

• You complete your education (high school, college, university, graduate school, whatever) because you want to, not because you feel like you should
  
  
• Helping others is not something you do as an afterthought. It is a central part of who you are, just as doing what you want is.

Ah.... what a pleasure.. Whilst I'm in the middle of 5am - 9am sleep which of course ready to make one dark eyebag, here comes the idea to start living this final exam to the max! Heh heh heh...

Love. Hugs. KissesKazoos.

that is a no joke

She was there... stooping in front of me... probably try to foresee her future. She was beaten by her father (an animal I must say) whose a drug addict. Beat her no matter when and what weapon at hand. She had taste the iron wire, window stalk.. trampled under her father's foot, and the mother... whom I would rather mention as a monkey, gave a big applause whilst her daughter got beaten. How eff was that.

I heard with patience.. Trying not to loose my tears, strong with heart and there she was... staring at the floor with tears at the corner of her eyes. She turned to be an almost prank (maybe). Skip classes and school and have made attempt to commit suicide. Luckily her friends grabbed her from behind and I don't know else. That info is enough.

Silence filled the room whilst she finish her story. I did ask many things just to know sort of her feeling.. maybe I just like a little bit of sharing. Sister said that papa is going to adopt her but her father gone mad.. probably trembling without beating her at one particular time.. or maybe her body is one choice of attempt to stop being a drug addict or (maybe) a pusher. What a punchbag they had found.

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Shit.

If I'm working, I might help that kid to loose up her problem or might just reduce her tension. If I know somebody in the theater, or any arts performer I would suggest her name for one shot. If I am someone I would ask police to arrest the bastard and his wife for attempt to kill that kid. Can intention get some point? Yes, the bastard did say that he don't even mind if she's dead. Might be in his hand. F!!

I cant believe to what I heard. It was a miserable experience one would encountered. I cant believe this kind of drama happened around me. I was upset. But I couldn't do anything. Just listened and try to be a good sister to her. I hope she will not turn be some prank out there.. corrupted girl who'd commonly found around us. It is a bad dream to know these people were one of our friends. Lets hope that she would stay strong and this experience could taught her about life.. and being independent. I really hope she could make it.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

will you be my maid of honor?

I have read and see a lot of people wondering about true friend whom in their observation has failed in finding one. Lots of backstabber has been found and these victims of backstabber started to shouting everywhere.

Five to six years ago, I started to know the backstabber's definition. It was painful, indeed. Clearly out of your mind when the person who done that is your close friend. Well I guess backstabber always come from our closest person because they are the one who know almost everything you've got even though you ain't have nothing. You are not rich. Not even pretty. Just an ordinary gal who of course have her own something-special but still, many flaws were seen. I have encountered numerous types of backstabbing activities and it gave me certain knowledge and lessons of being in that particular condition.

My story were done. So far for now, I still met with them but I don't give a damn. After all these years, meeting with such nuisance from any other kind give me strength and energy of ignorance and such. I have learnt how and when to be selfish which I never been able to do it before. I am not that kind who neglect others for my own priority. Well able to do that now is my biggest achievement towards life. =)

Now, I read lots of people especially in facebook started to shout about this issue. So now I know lots of people have encountered the same feelings as mine years ago. However, I reckon these people who talk about that is not someone whose straight, right and yes they was one of the b*tchstabber. So I guess the karma has begun. That is one thing of our Greatest Creator did in order to remind these people to awake and please... experience their feelings you've hurt yesterday. Its good to know about this, really. Allah is always fair and now I read about the people who trying to gain attention and gather clan as much as they can to do what...? Riot... I think? Oh, maybe just one condemn-organization for all they hate. Yeah, why not? Seems some of them still not learn the lessons, huh?

Will you be my maid of honor? Oh, I just remember you did traduced moi once upon a time. Nevermind. I'll find someone else. :D

Karma. One word. Value its lesson. And please... learn.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

ting! now you are one adorable cinderella =)

I didn't realize any until I encountered another nuisance (not going to bring it up again. Its just something that I realize... a bit late.) Wasn't really a nice type who will let it be what it supposed to be. I never let anything from my mind without knowing every single thing about it. A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

Yes. I was a jerk. A total jerk. Crap. Shit. Whatever you may call. I was really blunt like never ever thought about others feelings. To me, it is nothing. Well then I learnt that not everyone like that. But sometimes you just have to face it when you have intemperance no matter how much you have avoid. Whatever happened, we will never can change how it went before. What we may do is to learn and never stop learning from the mistakes we have done.

Its nice to be this way. Yeah. I wish I am this cool back than. But hey, will never moved like this without any lesson learnt, right? Whatever people may say, that is their right to use their mouth, speak about someone else. Means you are famous and they really cant resist of you. Grab the positive one okay? That's why they still traducing 'bout thy.

Everyone has their own history. Even Sunshine was a total prankster before. But he did changed and tadaa... been total human now not yet beating people without any concrete reason (Hoh! Thank God I met you after you pass that stage. :D ) Well, he has changed and continue seeking whats best for him in future neither do I. The before moi is just like to mess around. My blunt-ness always be underestimate therefore I figure something. I cant let my blunt-ness fade awat, heck I dont intend to. I just keep it low and maintain silence almost all the time I never needed (well I think I managed that. Yay!).

In a nutshell (yeah I like to start with long rants whilst always focus main point in a conclusion. Haha!! Well, am very good in creating conclusions. =) ), whoever you (read: WAS) before, yesterday, seconds ago, there will be a space for you to change yourself to be better. Better than before, yesterday, seconds ago. Just let yourself do the action and please use your brain to work together. There's no use to look back and continuously do the same mistake.

Remember, no one is perfect. People who like to condemn you about your past is the one who never moved on. To be blunt, they are envy.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

did you see any cobweb in my blog? okay no. I just update last Friday.

Clearly I have been busy for the past few weeks. Still busy actually and thank you for my effort in procrastinating for the past one month. Bravo Shikin!

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*sigh*

Well, it should not be this way. Even I have nearly failed to submit my report at its submission date.. but Alhamdullillah I managed to gave it to lecturers.... one day later. Heh. So that's not late?? Clever girl.

Let's recap what's still in my head.

I bought tissues from Adeq tisu dua sengget last week. He is a very nice person but unfortunately he is what you call 'special', did not harm anyone, very friendly and naive (of course he is. He's a special man.) Everytime Im having my meal around the university he will be there to sell the tissue at price RM2 for two. So that day, I just feel (more) pity to him (really more than the other days) for no-reason... So I bought. He did start a conversation with me with eyes looking at us (oh did I mentioned he talk so loud? Well, he is 'special' so excuses accepted). The sentence that I AM SO CLEARLY VERY ABSOLUTELY remember... when he said, "Muke akak macam Maya Karin." **translation: your looked slightly like Maya Karin. Hahahaha!!! Feels like throwing out? Please don't. Even it came from someone 'special' but I take that as a sincere compliment and really thank you adeq for such a sweet short conversation we had. I'll buy your tissue again later okay? ;)

Oh, I almost seriously like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissss close to be embarrassed for the whole year yesterday. Luckily my intuition is still strong. My feet moved so fast to other direction saving me from wearing ultraman-mask till the end of the semester.

Moral of the story, do not talk when you are walking. Or... please focus when you are talking while walking because you might hit others class whom the person you have peep is in that class. Hahahaha!!! (Sunshine please don't mad. I just like to have some fun with the girls that's all. Yes that is just it. I did not cheat. Teeheeheee... :D )

For past few stress-weeks, now I am much more relieved (but until Saturday only. The next day I have to prepare for Malaysian Derivative test 2 ngaaaaa~). For now... lets chill with ZZ Top. Lalalala~

Rumour spreadin' a-'round in that Texas town

'bout that shack outside La Grange

and you know what I'm talkin' about.

Just let me know if you wanna go

to that home out on the range.

They gotta lotta nice girls ah.

Have mercy.

A haw, haw, haw, haw, a haw.

A haw, haw, haw.

Well, I hear it's fine if you got the time

and the ten to get yourself in.

A hmm, hmm.

And I hear it's tight most ev'ry night,

but now I might be mistaken.

hmm, hmm, hmm.

Ah have mercy.

p/s: I want to google about takaful in Malaysia. But I feel too dizzy for now. And the pillow has slowly call my name. Oh wait for me pillow yes I think I need to take a nap for three or four hours. Huuuuaaaaaarrrgghhh........:p

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

I think Dr Hamzaid should come earlier

comic credit to

natalie dee

To solve and stop the PHD disease. Oh! Maybe he cant do that cause that disease has been in their mind for twenty-eff two years.

I wonder when will they learn. *sigh*

Love (sorry I couldnt love you anymore), hugs (dont even bother), kisses kazoos (please sing me your song sunshine)

Hold 'em while you still can

Apparently my mood swing is really like hell for now. Everything seems not right even the arse-signments has gone...done... (half of 'em. I think... =_=' ) Maybe the test and quiz for tomorrow makes I feel burden. I reckon, few weeks back Im a lazy moron like seriously cant get my arse around and do my chores yes I am so (read: busy) like hell.

But today I realize that my mood has already well-build, I have becoming wise (again) because I have cooked for my lovely housemates after a month (err... I think) didn't use that pan and ladle (oh so missed to cooks! Ha-ha).

Okay, enough with rants. Its time for dinner. Hehehe...

p/s: Im on diet. Well, I eat with little portion, I do sit-up (haww!), pumping (I had instant-asthma - swear to God!) and some ginger creme around my waist. Just cant help it when you see that tummy move like jelly. Huhuhu...

Love your health. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

(another) new love ;)

photo credit to: uuuhh... I dont know. Google?

The web: Babyprinceofsoul.

He is not as tough as James Hetfield. His music also is not in heavy metal category.......its pop. Sorta Backstreet Boys I fell in love with back then. He is indeed tall, 180cm. (yeah baby that's the EXACT height man should achieve :p )

He IS cute kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaann??? Hahaha..

Yes I know I am so outta my nerve. I does not like cute guy. I like the macho one. Ngeeeehhh!! No la.. not exactly. I fell in love with Kim Hyun Joong because of he himself. I watched several videos in youtube later conclude that Hyun Joong is such an optimist guy. Very da workaholic you! Seldom smiling, enjoy being himself all the time. And he is... MACHO. Yes. He is. To me. He is. :D Why do I love this guy? Coz he is one of the cocky - son of a gun! Yes, lots of sons have been in my list. (hetfield.J, james.B... say who?) And please let me include another okay. What special is... Hyun Joong is the first Asian actor I fell in love with after some observation in several videos. (oh, yes. several. not all. so point taken from videos I've watched. ;) )

Okay, back to the reality.

I had a chat with bff last few days.

She told: This year really is YOUR YEAR.

Okay. I was stunt. Yes. Bff was absolutely right. This year... I won the Mister Potato Contest prizes me with a sum of money (quite loads i tell you :D ) and then some prosperity from the investment and the latest was the other REMARKABLE news. Oh God! Thank you for all the things you gave me. Thanks with the prosperity. I LOVE YOU. SYUKUR YA ALLAH.

That statement, YOUR YEAR somehow remind me on how the world goes around. Its round. Once you on top once you'll take the bottom.

I told bff: I am afraid Allah would take it way more harder. I just need to remember that this would is round. And its your duty to remind me. :)

Hopefully bff or maybe (the) significant other would remind me on how the world (will) goes round. Sometimes you really up there... reach the stars you ever wanted. You become a superstar! But who knows how long you'll remain there? For the love as one, I would remind you who read this rants please do remember thy roots okay?

To Kim Hyun Joong, may you success in your career (Wallaweh! I even find space to wish him best of luck eh? Impressive.. :p ) Remember okay? Remember what? Read the rants again and please understand by yourself. Sorry if we cant have proper two way communication. Im not good in english myself. If in Malay we say, "Belasah je!" if you convert, it means... "Beat it!" Haha.. So just be it.

Cewah... I am so tingtong now. Like Hyun Joong read this. Hahahaha!!! Funny la Shikin now get on bed! I need to sleep. Seriously. Tomorrow will be hectic. 6 hours straight in class. Oh no!

Continue loving people! ;)

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoos.

Now the lips seriously cant seal

Sempena Maulidul Rasul esok.

Selamat Menyambut Maulidul Rasul wahai Umat Islam sedunia.

Sempena sambutan itu, saya juga telah berhijrah daripada blog lama ke blog baru. Dengan tujuan........ (=_=')

Okey. Tak ada tujuan. Saje-saje je tukar blog buat kali yang entah ke berapa. Kenapa? Entah. Saya sukalah. Hahaha...

Sekarang tengah on ym. Ain ajak masuk conference sekali dengan Husni. And this lips seriously cant help from laugh out loud like hell. Mereka ini sangat funny okey (yerk! so nak muntah baca ayat sendiri).

So okeylah kot blog ni...

Tak ada idea sangat nak buat template ape. Nanti kalau dah ada tema saya letak okey.

Selamat malam semua.

p/s: a lilttle soul-food for us, muslims.

Love. Hugs. Kisses Kazoo